I’m currently doing a little Facebook fast. Some people do new year’s food cleanses, but since I’ve got a baby to feed, I am doing a little social media cleanse instead.
It feels AH-MAZING. OK, not really. It’s only day two. Perhaps refreshing is a better word?
Y’all, I am just so tired of seeing people’s drama played out and dirty laundry aired in my Facebook feed all the time. Before it was all the idiotic and ignorant political rants, now it’s this. It is so tacky and gross the shit people will post, and then I feel tacky and gross consuming it. People don’t realize the implications their posts have, the people they’ll offend with them. Words, like some of the words I see plastered online, have repercussions.
I also just think it’s good for the soul to spend a little time offline, disconnected. Linden deserves my undivided attention, not my constant tapping on the Facebook icon on my phone to see if anyone put anything up in the five minutes since I last checked it.
I will be back of course, because I do love most of my peeps on there. But it just got to be a bit much with the draaaaaaaaama. And the bashing of things and people I believe in. And the passive aggressiveness. No shortage of that on Facebook, no sirree.
I also took Twitter off my phone as part of the fast. I’m just not really into Twitter anymore, to be honest. I use it because it’s a place to just type out a random thought (to be re-read a year later…man how I love my daily Timehop emails!), but I don’t really connect with anyone on it or use it very “socially.” My fault, I’m sure. It is a great place to get news though!
ANYWAY! I’ll let you know if I come out of this a better person.
(Ha!)
So I’m working on Linden’s three month update right now. A lot has happened! This was also a hard month. But I feel like we’re turning a corner and it’s very cool to see her grow and develop. I love my munchkin more and more each day. I think I can’t love her anymore, and then my heart explodes open even bigger. I even cry sometimes thinking about how much I love her. My little peanut.
I’ve been missing Colorado something fierce. I miss the whole lifestyle — it’s just so much more relaxed there. I miss the open expanse of sky and I miss the perpetual sunshine, the dry air, and the white, clean snow that falls. I miss the flat, wide sidewalks and all the parks. I miss snowboarding and snowshoeing and above all, I miss my friends. People who love me in spite of having a baby or maybe because of…many of our friends started procreating when we did. It would be so awesome to be raising our kids together. Like-minded parenting!
I sometimes hope we move back there someday. But I know if I were there now, while Linden is a baby, I would be missing Virginia and my family. The one thing that everyone said while I was pregnant that is the most true about how it will be to have a baby is that I will be so happy to have my mom around. They were right! It must be so hard to have a baby without family around for help and support.
I also miss…wait for it…working. I’m so thankful that I am able to be home with Linden right now and soooooo glad to not have to be preparing to go back to work at the 3-month mark. But as Linden gets older, the more I start to be ready for something outside of 24/7 baby raising. I am not surprised, I never thought I was destined to be a SAHM forever. I’m keeping my eyes open now for the right opportunity.
And to go along with this whole missing things theme that’s emerged…I miss warm weather and evening light. I am definitely starting to go bonkers with all this indoor time. We do try to go out for walks everyday, but when it’s pouring down rain? No thanks.
I miss having a car…
I miss being able to wear all of my fancy-schmancy jeans…
I miss Facebook…
(NOT.)
(Um, not yet.)
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You mean my constant hitting of the Refresh button is a bad thing? What if I do the same thing on your blog, hoping for an update … is that also bad? =D
Instead of doing a Facebook fast, I actually deleted hundreds of contacts a few months ago. Some of it was for political reasons, but a lot of it had to do with wanting FB to feel more intimate (well, as intimate as still having 200 friends allows). I want it to be an interactive experience where (a) my FB friends actually post status updates, photos, etc. and/or (b) my FB friends interact with me by commenting on my posts or responding to my comments on their posts. It was a very liberating experience and I’ve found that I get MUCH less frustrated with FB since then (and if I am getting frustrated in some way, then I just delete the person or persons who are frustrating me – it’s pretty simple).
I think you comment about having family near can be true, but isn’t always the case. I live many states away from my parents and do not feel the need to be closer to them. That said, I see them about once a quarter, because they have the luxury of being able to travel when they want. Sweets’ family is local and it’s nice to spend time with his parents (because we like them as people) … though I can count on one hand the number of times I’ve felt like we needed them to help.
I cannot tell you how many times the other daycare moms and I express enormous thanks for our daycare. None of us feel we could be SAHMs. You’re a special breed, for sure. And it’s also OK to feel the hankering to work while continuing to be a mom to Linden.
Finally, you make me miss Colorado (and I haven’t ever lived there – only visited) for all the very reasons that Sweets and I would move there in a heartbeat if it weren’t for his family in Chicago.
Well I can say with all honesty that CO (and I) totally miss you guys! When you said you might consider moving back one day, my heart skipped a beat.
CO is amazing as are the friends we make here. After going thru 2 weeks of surgery then being readmitted then being sick after that, I would honestly be dead and buried if my CO Friends-Like-Family hadn’t been with me every step of the way. Especially being single and on my own, the kindness of my CO friends blew me away.
I hear ya on the fast. I’m hardly on Twitter anymore but I still keep it around. Ditched Path – kept forgetting to use it. FB got wicked nutty during political season but I just muted the most offensive (some of which I’m related to) and ignored the rest the best I could.
I DO love that you post pix of L on FB – it’s super cool getting to watch her grow up.
Miss ya, Love!
xoxo <3