I’m currently doing a little Facebook fast. Some people do new year’s food cleanses, but since I’ve got a baby to feed, I am doing a little social media cleanse instead.
It feels AH-MAZING. OK, not really. It’s only day two. Perhaps refreshing is a better word?
Y’all, I am just so tired of seeing people’s drama played out and dirty laundry aired in my Facebook feed all the time. Before it was all the idiotic and ignorant political rants, now it’s this. It is so tacky and gross the shit people will post, and then I feel tacky and gross consuming it. People don’t realize the implications their posts have, the people they’ll offend with them. Words, like some of the words I see plastered online, have repercussions.
I also just think it’s good for the soul to spend a little time offline, disconnected. Linden deserves my undivided attention, not my constant tapping on the Facebook icon on my phone to see if anyone put anything up in the five minutes since I last checked it.
I will be back of course, because I do love most of my peeps on there. But it just got to be a bit much with the draaaaaaaaama. And the bashing of things and people I believe in. And the passive aggressiveness. No shortage of that on Facebook, no sirree.
I also took Twitter off my phone as part of the fast. I’m just not really into Twitter anymore, to be honest. I use it because it’s a place to just type out a random thought (to be re-read a year later…man how I love my daily Timehop emails!), but I don’t really connect with anyone on it or use it very “socially.” My fault, I’m sure. It is a great place to get news though!
ANYWAY! I’ll let you know if I come out of this a better person.
So I’m working on Linden’s three month update right now. A lot has happened! This was also a hard month. But I feel like we’re turning a corner and it’s very cool to see her grow and develop. I love my munchkin more and more each day. I think I can’t love her anymore, and then my heart explodes open even bigger. I even cry sometimes thinking about how much I love her. My little peanut.
I’ve been missing Colorado something fierce. I miss the whole lifestyle — it’s just so much more relaxed there. I miss the open expanse of sky and I miss the perpetual sunshine, the dry air, and the white, clean snow that falls. I miss the flat, wide sidewalks and all the parks. I miss snowboarding and snowshoeing and above all, I miss my friends. People who love me in spite of having a baby or maybe because of…many of our friends started procreating when we did. It would be so awesome to be raising our kids together. Like-minded parenting!
I sometimes hope we move back there someday. But I know if I were there now, while Linden is a baby, I would be missing Virginia and my family. The one thing that everyone said while I was pregnant that is the most true about how it will be to have a baby is that I will be so happy to have my mom around. They were right! It must be so hard to have a baby without family around for help and support.
I also miss…wait for it…working. I’m so thankful that I am able to be home with Linden right now and soooooo glad to not have to be preparing to go back to work at the 3-month mark. But as Linden gets older, the more I start to be ready for something outside of 24/7 baby raising. I am not surprised, I never thought I was destined to be a SAHM forever. I’m keeping my eyes open now for the right opportunity.
And to go along with this whole missing things theme that’s emerged…I miss warm weather and evening light. I am definitely starting to go bonkers with all this indoor time. We do try to go out for walks everyday, but when it’s pouring down rain? No thanks.
I miss having a car…
I miss being able to wear all of my fancy-schmancy jeans…
I miss Facebook…
(Um, not yet.)